PCOS

This blog post will be very detailed about women’s health, if you are uncomfortable with this, feel free to skip this post.

Before I start, I would like to extend my support and love to all the women struggling with this. I care, God cares, you’re not alone.

I have been gone for quite some time. I keep telling myself I need to write, or I have nothing to write about. But now I’m gonna be transparent with you. In September of 2019, I got diagnosed with PCOS. It stands for Poly-cystic Ovarian Syndrome. Only 1 in 10 of women suffer with this around the world, I am 1 in 10.

It all started when I was a child. I got my period at the age of 13. From there on, I was a late bloomer in maturing into a young women. My period was irregular since the age of 13. By the age of 15, I lost over 35 pounds in about two months of time. I was on this FAD diet that made me very skinny, and I was barely eating anything. I looked really skinny, in fact the skinniest I ever was in my life. I ate a big half of a cucumber sometimes in one day. That’s all I ate. After losing this weight I did have normal periods for about 3-4 years.

Sometimes I would eat half of a mac and cheese box and salad for a whole day. In my teenage mind, I didn’t know that limiting myself that much was unhealthy, I just wanted to look good, but I didn’t feel good. In high school Sophomore year, I gained more friends because of my appearance and because everyone noticed that overweight Margaret became skinny. I suddenly then became more likable.

I had struggled for years for kids bullying me for being overweight. One girl even asked me in high school if I was transgender because the pants I wore were too tight, due to me being bloated. (That wrecked me, and I was pressured to lose the weight fast, I wanted to be liked.) Fast track to end of high school years and beginning college, I started gaining weight more rapidly and couldn’t lose anymore even though I ate really clean at this point (I was eating properly).

I don’t know why I was gaining so much weight so quickly. I was still having irregular periods and severe pain in my lower abdomen. The severe pain that I had was really bad. By the year of 2018, I got married to my best friend, moved to Canada, and immigrated here. It took one year to get my free health card, and still I was missing my period

Before I got my health card, I was working at a dealership at the time, and I was noticing that I had the worst severe pain in my stomach since I had been working there, and I was scared because I was fearing something bad was happening to me. My husband and I went to a doctor in a walk-in clinic and paid a couple hundred bucks to get checked. That doctor who didn’t even check my blood pressure, weight or anything and the doctor told me that I could have an eptopic pregnancy. An eptopic pregnancy is a tubal pregnancy, the baby doesn’t form in the womb. It is very dangerous for a woman to have because it can cause death.

That day not only was I in severe pain, but I was let go of my job for no cause. So I immediately flew out to Florida, and as soon as I landed, my mom took me straight to the emergency. I had a terrible experience with the doctor that had seen me that night in the emergency. I did several painful tests, just to be told that I had cysts. I didn’t get any diagnosis, no pregnancy, and still no period. Turns out that the other doctor that I had seen in Canada gave me wrong advise, so much wrong advise that I had to fly to Florida to see if I had a dangerous pregnancy, which I wasn’t pregnant.

Once I got my health card in Canada, I finally went to see a proper doctor. I told my doctor all my symptoms, and she had sent me to get more several tests in depth done, and finally, I had gotten my results. This is when I was told that I have PCOS One thing that I will say is that all my blood work was normal except that I had over 27 cysts on each side of my ovaries, that confirmed the diagnosis. Guys, I got diagnosed at 21 years of age! I’m 22 now, most women don’t get diagnosed until they are in there older 20’s.

Now I’m not proclaiming this over myself, I believe in the power of healing in the name of the Lord. And I don’t accept the diagnosis of PCOS, because I know who I am in Jesus.

Today, I’m still working on eating healthy and making my health progress slowly. I would rather lose weight slowly, feel good, and be happy than fast and gain everything back. I’m transitioning to a healthier lifestyle, slowly but surely. I’m not perfect and I will probably still have my cheat days but I chose to eat healthier.

There are other symptoms that come with PCOS but I will not list them here since I’m trying to keep this family friendly (Of course this post isn’t for everyone, mainly women.) I will list some of the symptoms; unwanted facial hair (Praise God that for me it isn’t that bad, some women have it worse.), severe cramps, moodiness (as if your constantly PMSING), no periods, infertility (This one is a sensitive topic, you have no idea how many pregnancy tests I have took because I was always missing my period), and trouble losing weight due to inflammation in my body. The last one especially makes so much sense why it was always hard for me to lose weight.

All in all, I wanted this post to be raw, I’m done with keeping to myself. I’m still trying to figure out my journey to be healed from all of this. If your are going through this or have similar symptoms, don’t be afraid to reach out to me. We are all in this together.

If you have struggled with this for quite some time, I’m open to some advice.

God bless you all,

-Margaret Domnin

Marriage, is it for me?

When I was a little girl, I dreamed of marriage.

I grew up in a single-parent household. My mother raised me by herself the youngest child of three (I have two older sisters), it was hard. I moved a lot, changed many different schools, lost contact with some of my very close friends, we even foreclosed the condo that we lived in, that was hard for me it was awful, the living conditions there were explainable. My view on man changed when I saw how hard my mother worked. I honestly hated men, and thought I could never trust any man, because I saw my mother doing everything. I always leaned toward women, because to me they were more comforting.

I was always so cautious when I had a male teacher or male people around me. I trusted my grandpa mainly the most when it came to male figures, and of course, God too. To be honest even seeing little girls hold their dads hands made me very jealous and angry, but God already knew how I felt. Growing up, I was never a troubled kid. I rarely caused trouble.

When I was a little girl, I dreamed of Marriage. As I grew older, I had doubts of someone wanting to marry me. You see, I wanted to be a wife so bad and the devil put thoughts into my mind making me believe that no one wanted to marry me. A few of those thoughts included insecurities about my appearance. My whole life I felt that I needed to be someone else because of how people thought of me. Well let me tell you, THE DEVIL IS A BIG FAT LIAR!

I cannot express how thankful I am to God, I just can’t thank Him enough!! I met my husband years back at Messiah College when we were teenagers. Little did I know (haha) that he would be my husband today. (I’ll add our love story in another blog hehe.) My dreams came true in 2016, God allowed me to have a man to enter in my life. Everything from there changed, my look on man changed. My views of how men behave changed because not every man out there is the same, everyone has their a personality of their own. I became more open to having conversations to men (in this way I mean like congregation members of my synagogue.) This doesn’t mean I had no boundaries because till this day I am cautious and conservative when I shake hands with a man or even hug them. Sometimes men in congregations want to hug me, but I learned that you can extent your hand to give them a handshake out of politeness. You don’t have to hug everyone you see!

Before my husband, I dated no one. I waited for my husband. He was the only person I dated, and the only person that I entered a relationship with. Before I even knew my husband, I prayed for him. Ladies, if you think there is no man for you out there that God won’t give you, your wrong because God does not want man to be alone, we (women) are the helpers of man. Pray for the right man, God will give him to you. Also, I have nothing against single women, nor single women in ministry either, everyone has their own purpose and destiny.

On February 5th, 2018

We got married.

Forever in Love
Forever with God
Best Day Ever

So if your thinking now about marriage, is marriage for you?

My answer is yes.

God bless you,

M

The proposal

November 26th, 2017

One of the best days of my life.